The perilous journey of an ordinary fan.

How I wish you stayed and explained then I would’ve easily let you go and the pain you left. Why must you be so inconsiderate? I used to hate you but I can’t be like that forever for I’ll continue hurting myself. I once asked myself on how things turned out this way… how did we become friends again? I really don’t remember. It’s just sad that even at this point, I’m still clueless on what really happened.

No, I’m not mad at you anymore. I erased the thought of you and voodoo dolls so you have nothing to worry about. And YES, I have moved on just in case that question still lingers in your head. I am okay and I will continue being okay just in case something new happens to you. I won’t mind at all. And I do hope you believe in me. Please, it’s the least you can do to me after everything that we’ve been through.

But you know what?

I wish you well. No regrets. Take it easy, amigo. Jia Yo.

Dear Stranger,

They’re asking me to write a letter to you. Well it is weird to write a letter to someone you don’t really know, I think it’s just strange. Oh well. Hope to meet you one day.

One day, we shall meet in the real world.

Hi shobs. Sorry your letter is a little late. Aigoo. How do I start? WELL? First, sorry. For not being there when you needed me the most, sorry for leaving you alone, for being a weak and unreliable sister. I know, I am selfish, for I’m afraid to be hurt. Truth is, I am proud of you and actually envious on how you handle things. I wish I could be as strong as you, willing to fight for your rights and decisions. Hay. And I Thank you too, for loving me despite my inconsistencies and for being the most random, funny, childish and ultra-lovable sister. I know I’m not showy but dude, I miss you.

P.s.

I hope you don’t read this. Not Now. hahahaha.

Since we have, well.. Yeap…

This simple sentence would do:

I LOVE YOU, both so much. ♥

Hi Organ Player at our church, I ♥ you. OKAY. I am totally kidding right now.

Anyway, here’s the thing. You do know that I have been secretly liking you for almost 2 years now, and it’s very evident that I have this HUGE crush on you. Ever since you received my letter, I never felt at ease on you know, liking you anymore. Damn, that was so embarassing but you know what I actually realized that as of the moment, i don’t care anymore. So, I like you but of course, I don’t expect you to like me back. It may be the other way around, right? OH NOOOOOOOOOO, It’s totally okay if you don’t like me just don’t hate me hahaha. kk. So yeah.

Your’e still my biggest crush. CHUWAEHO! ♥

From stalking Adam Young to Finding Jerry Yan Dvd’s. Getting drunk in front of a well known bassist and laughing about it. Eating Buffallo wings in one sitting and munching on Taco Bell tacos. Raiding 168 and attending KayJi get togethers. If I were asked to list all of the things me and my bestfriend did for the past 2 years, I’d probably end up flooding your dashboard.

Basta, one big thank you, for being there when I needed to cry and vent out. Thank You for making me laugh even at our worst case scenarios. Thank you for supporting me in all my endeavors no matter how crazy they get. Thank you for playing “brownie games” with me. (HAHAHA, SERIOUSLY?) and thank you for saying and commenting “You’re the best EP, Kaya mo yan” and the like whenever  I am doing something big.

And oh, remember our crushes? Parami parin sila ng parami hanggang ngayon. Sa hirap at tagumpay, sabay tayo tatagay (WEH? Yung totoo) ANAK NG TUMBLR BA NAMAN KASI, KAILANGAN DAW KITANG SULATAN?

Basta, Daii. United we stand, still, UNITED WE FALL. Malalayo layo pa ang ating tatahikin, di kita hahamakin (ANO?)

LABYU DAII!

(GAYNESS OVERLOADDDD)

Talagang ganyan ang buhay, dapat ka nang masanay, wala ding mangyayari kung laging nakikibagay.. Pinoy ikaw ay Pinoy, ipakita sa mundo, kung ano ang kaya mo…

The Philippine National Anthem? Well, at one point it was mistaken to be the National Anthem but no. This song became popular around 2007, when the hit reality show Pinoy Big Brother aired. Everybody was practically singing and humming the song. Christmas parties were not complete if no one showcased this song as a “production number.”

The band behind this? Orange and Lemons.

Orange and Lemons. Admit it, akala mo citrus juice to nung una. Clem, Mcoy, Jm and Ace. These 4 names were the names I uttered the most last 2007. I clearly remember the night I went to their “Davao-Gig” at “Matina Town Square.”

I was walking towards the resto when I saw a familiar face in the parking lot, It couldn’t be him… but it was him. MCOY FUNDALES in the flesh. The reason of my existence, the epitome of my childhood dreams, the voice who sang Hanggang Kailan na parang pinahid ang buong lalamunan ng vicks vapor rub. Ang pangarap ko.

“Pwedeng pa picture?”

(srsly, pwedeng magsuklay)

I went with my whole family and eagerly watched Mcoy sing. “Ibang-iba ang Tsinooooy!!” Ahhhh, and I died. The best night of my life. DECEMBER 17, 2007, di kita malilimutan!!! (infairness, effective?)

“Pa, patulong naman, diba kakilala mo yung kasama nila?”

And so we went backstage and took our picture with the band. I remember my mom snatching a CD Booklet from a helpless kid and asked ONL to sign it for me. I know. It made me go awwwww but my heart also went out to the kid. Oh well.

Since then, I never stopped listening to Orange and Lemons. I’ve been rightfully defending Mcoy whenever my friends say something against him. I called him 56 times a day and I didn’t know why. I texted him all day long. I stalked his friendster and searched the whole web for his pictures. So that makes it all clear now. My personal favorite was the main man, Mcoy Fundales.

Mcoy, mcoy, mcoy. Ah, I remember be-friending his daughter, Mika. Mika is an awesome person and I don’t hate her for being with Mcoy. In fact, Mika is one of the coolest person I’ve met online ‘cause after I quit my life as an ONL lister, she still remembered me when we bumped into each other at Trinoma. But I am getting ahead of my story.

There was a time when I convinced my parents that I actually miss my Auntie in Manila and I needed to see her. HAH! I think I left out the part that “I wanted to see Mcoy and ONL.” And yes, I flew all the way from Davao just to watch them perform. I was only 14 back then.

It was just awesome. Words are not enough to explain the feeling of meeting them again!! So here are a couple of pics..

(masyado naman yata akong ma pimples)

Speechless.

Sadly, Orange and Lemons disbanded a few years ago and it broke my heart. I remember their interview when they clearly stated that they will not disband. So much for claim to fame interviews.

Mcoy, Ace and JM formed their own band called “Kenyo” while Clem went his own way with a new band under the name “Camerawalls.” I remember buying Kenyo’s first album but it just didn’t feel right.

That was.. 3 years ago. I have no idea on what Mcoy is doing or what Kenyo’s new album is all about. Truth is, I don’t care anymore. I lost hope in OPM. Selfish? Maybe.

But there are times, when I’m lying in my bed.. and miss Orange and Lemons. But it ends there.

So I was telling you earlier. Wait para mas masaya i-Filipino natin:

Pauwi na ako ng Trinoma ‘nun nang may nakasalubong akong lalaking naka bonnet na may kasamang babae at anak? na kasing edad ko. I didn’t really care until achie nats asked me: si Mcoy ba yun?.. Pero nung lumingon ako, di ko na makita. I wasn’t really bothered but as soon as I got home and logged on my facebook, I saw this message from Mika: “I saw you in Trinoma. Ikaw yun, diba?”

Oh well. Papel.

I just added Mcoy in facebook and I think it’s cool that he still remembers me. I appreciate that a lot and I might buy Kenyo’s second album. So for now, I only have one memory left of ONL.

Moonlane Gardens.

Broken pieces of our dreams won’t fade away.

There was a time when I was young, fat and plump. My only happiness back then was chicken joy, fries and greasy burgers. Until I met Mandy Moore.

I can clearly remember the day we walked past the VCD vendors and saw a pirated copy of A Walk to Remember. The minute we got home, I popped it up in our VCD player and thus the perilous journey started.

The next day I went to school, I stood up and told my friends on how Awesome A Walk to Remember was. They didn’t care. Moving on..

I started printing out colored pictures of Mandy Moore, I found out that she was actually the girl behind the song Candy, and so I went on to buy her albums. I re-watched the VCD over and over again until I memorized the lines.

The epitome of my Mandy Moore hype was when she became the image model of Penshoppe. I started buying stuff from Penshoppe. I searched Manila for all the ensembles she modeled and asked the Penshoppe people for posters and calendars. Penshoppe became my favorite brand.

The Mandy Moore phase was the start of my life, as a fan.

That was 9 years ago. I can still remember the excitement I felt whenever I visit bookstores and see her face in the cover of a “song-hits” magazine. Oh the Joy!

I’m all grown-up now and I have no idea where or what Mandy Moore is doing. I started disliking her when she did other movies cause I had this notion that she only belonged to Landon Carter a.k.a Shane West. Heee.

Oh well.

Anyway, I might drop by at Penshoppe later. Bye for now!